Posted by azngeek at July 19th, 2008

Last night I went out with my friend, for simplicity’s sake, lets call her Soccer Girl™. I usually see her at the end of every semester. Went to high school with her for a couple of months before I moved to a different school. The stuff we usually do when we meet up would consist usually of a movie, food, and a drink, and a long talk. She reflects on herself to me, I reflect on myself to her. I’m not sure what kinda categories our talks would be put under. But man, they are always thoughtful and so contemplative; it’s quite hard to imagine that I’d get myself into conversations like that. ( I had a similar conversation with Economics Girl™ as well -> I have no idea how I lend myself into situations like these. At least it only happens about twice a year, for the most part haha)

And it’s got me thinking, thinking about, how much I’ve lost focus on the things that really mattered to me. For a while there, I was putting in so much effort on things that didn’t really matter hugely to me. And the things that mattered, took a back seat for a while. I haven’t really let friends into my thoughts, and it’s been more on a need to know basis. And I think it might have been because I was reciprocating on the fact that was what they were doing it as well. That’s just how guys roll. Haha. I just said that’s how guys roll. I am now officially hip and cool.

But I think I’ve just been given you know that refreshing dip into a sea of focus. I think I’m ready to get out of this status-quo of indecision.

Signing Off,
Azngeek