The AznGeek

Posted by Morpork at May 27th, 2008

-> Inventory

You open your bag and find a textbook, some paper, a pencil case.

-> open case

What?

-> open pencil case

You find nothing out of the ordinary and decide not to look there again.

-> check textbook

Mechanics of Materials, used to cure insomnia.

-> read textbook

You fall asleep.

Posted by psych at May 27th, 2008

Dear God, (not the exclamation/swear. the actual Supreme Being guy)
I hope you’re listening. It’s been a while. I keep missing those weekly appointments we’re supposed to have. The nightly ones.. if I’m not mistaken have stopped since primary school. So.. how are you? I was afraid of starting this conversation ‘cos I’d be out of words to say in five minutes. I kept putting it off until I had something meaningful to tell or ask you. But it seems the longer I wait, the smaller the urge to talk becomes. Is asking how you are a redundant question? I mean you’ve gotta be fine. Theres no other possibility, right? Unless I actually buy into those stories about you needing a shoulder to lean on and complain about the situation (the extremely crappy situation) the world is in now.

In any case. It feels good for some reason. I’ve become slightly pseudo-agnostic in by beliefs of late. Not sure what influenced these changes but they’re here nevertheless. I guess I’ve always been marvelled at the sheer number of religions claiming You to be the only one. Yeah, I used the word ‘claim’. Does it sound harsh to you? I think its justified. That marvel turned into.. doubt for the lack of a better word. Not so much doubt as curiosity actually. But I doubt I’ll be busying myself searching for the truth anytime soon.

So.. my lifes been fine.  I guess you already knew that. Been keeping busy against my will. Theres nothing better than going to a beach with friends but theres only so often when that’ll happen. I’m lucky to have one weekend home nowadays. But again, I guessed you already knew that. Er.. see? That thing I mentioned earlier (the loss of words) is starting to happen.

… Ah.. American politics. This intrigued me recently. That Clinton woman scares me. She’s like that grandmother who wouldn’t let go of her purse while being dragged behind the motorcycle of a snatch thief. She’ll end up pulling the thief off his bike and smashing his brains in with a rock or her bag. Or a rock Inside her bag… She just seems the type.

Well, I’ve got loads to study for. The rain this week has been a godsend (Pardon the pun. I guess you saw that coming as well). The heat was overwhelming. I guess technically that was a “godsend” as well. I’d appreciate you sending less sunshine. By the way, it’s amazing how many insects I find dead outside (and inside) my building everyday. Insect burial grounds ftw. I know they’re created by you, but they look alien and I feel no sympathy for their demise. I do kill the occasional one to put it out of its misery*ahem*.

Thou shalt not kill… humans? Oh and animals of course. I think I heard Azngeek grunt in disapproval. I wasn’t gonna use grunt. But squeal and sigh so didnt fit. Whats the descriptive word for that “woooiii/weeeiiiii” sound Malaysians make which I’m assuming is the equivalent of the British/nz?/auzzie? “Oi/Oye” and the American “hey”? I cant… find.. it…. Grunt it is.
ps-God if this doesnt reach you, no worries. I think I might just stop procrastinating and get that overdue visit  done with sometime soon. [Im talking about church. Please don’t take that as me willing to die prematurely. Thanks]

pps-to those people who i’m guessing dont stop by anymore since there hasnt been updates in a long time. Ill be posting OFTEN until furthur notice. Even if its one liners, Ill do it. Think I wont? Just waatchh mehhh….

Be prepared for posts like. “today I had a club sandwich. It tasted vinegarry. I think they should go easy on the mayo.” Or not,.
pSyCh

Posted by azngeek at May 18th, 2008

Just a little forward. Dog VS Cat diary ahahhah.

Posted by azngeek at May 16th, 2008

You changed my life,
you made me whole,
you know me now,
but I’m caught in the middle.

Posted by azngeek at May 15th, 2008

“Big Brother in the form of an increasingly powerful government and in an increasingly powerful private sector will pile the records high with reasons why privacy should give way to national security, to law and order […] and the like.” - Justice William O. Douglas

Let me be once more a bit more contemplative. Let me delve deeper into the juggling act of ideas in the circus I call my brain. Stop. Rewind. Yes. There. That one. That’s what I want to talk about. But be very quiet. He might hear us.

For as long as I can remember, the idea of sticking it to the man; It’s always sat well with me. Privacy. The sanctity of ones space, ones beliefs, ones culture. Privacy. The sanctuary of ones thoughts process. The lab where you cultivate courage to speak your mind, to be different and indifferent, to dream of dreaming. Big brother. He sows the seeds of the intense need for acceptance, he suffocates with standards of what is acceptable and what is not.

It pains me to no end, with the institutionalization of everything. From knowledge all the way to how one should act, behave, speak, look, and feel. We persecute and fear the Picassos, the Da Vincis, the Mozarts, of our time no longer with pitch-forks and torches. But we beat and bruise their mind to the ground with goals and the performance benchmarks. And we encroach them into categories with numbers, 160. 170. 170. Ah. Yes. Gifted. Non-gifted. And then we try to propel them forward to conformance. We leave them no room to grow and develop in a random erratic fashion. We do not let them evolve into what they can be.

The punk rockers, the emos, the homosexuals, the blacks, the whites, the asians. Big brother is in the form of our peers. Those that are alike. Even the different. Are not so very different.

And me? I’m institutionalized as hell and I so bloody conform. It makes me wonder. How different would I have been from the other different people, if I had grown up with a bit more privacy.

Posted by azngeek at May 14th, 2008

think I need to swim into a pool of ideas, and move with the ripples of change.