Posted by psych at October 28th, 2007

I’m supposed to be studying. I’m a little (way more than that) behind on stuff. I can’t tho. Feeling slightly nauseated at my surroundings. My room, my walls. Bah, what the hell. Feel very chained. Bored. Wings clipped, separated from things I want to do.  Moodless more like it. Strange feelings. Homesickness? Slightly. Going outside isn’t helping. Eating out doesnt help get rid of the fact that I’ll be eating the less than desirable cafe food for 1 more year at least. Time’s going by pretty fast. Its already been 2 months since I set foot here. The people I see everyday, classmates etc.. it feels like I’ve known them for years. But a piece is missing. I miss her. I can almost turn the feeling on or off. When I’m left to my own thoughts it all comes flooding back. She barely comes up during classes. Which isnt the way it should be.
Donated 450ml of my life essence yesterday. Which could be a reason for how I’m feeling. Asked a friend to take a pic of my orgasmic face while I lay on the bed. Needle induced orgasm =) I even had the sun shining on my head to emphasize the pleasure I was supposed to be feeling.
Gotta study. I just don’t get Anatomy and the need for all the fucking memorization. Wrongly phrased. I know the importance of it. But I dont get the teaching method. Just memorizing the blood supply/lymphatic drainage/nerve supply of region ‘X’ from scratch doesnt feel like learning to me. It’s lacking .. substance. Looking at the cadavers help my image-oriented brain a little but it’s seriously robotic stuff. Gotta get it over with eventually. Exam in two weeks. Just what I needed.

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