Posted by psych at September 4th, 2006

haha. hey guys. just an update.

I can’t seem to fall asleep for more than 2 hours at the most. I’m sure this has never happened to me before. I get sleepy and fall asleep only to wake up about an hour later. Right before I wake up I kinda get the feeling like I was dreaming about something that I felt I needed/wanted to have but can’t or won’t (or maybe both) get. Its like its in my grasp but I just let it go at that last moment before I wake up. Right then I wake up feeling like crap. Feeling like I just let go of happiness or something like it. I dont even know what it is. It feels good though. Like the anti-everythingbadintheworld. Everything dissolves away and I’m not sure what I’m supposed to be missing. But I know I miss it a whole lot. Sigh, I like the feeling it gives me right before I wake up though. I think bliss might actually feel like that. Btw, people who think I’m talking methaphorically, think again. I’m seriously confused here. I remember the opposite happening before actually, i just got one of those really really cool toy dinosaurs for my [insert forgotten occasions name]. It was so awesome that I fell asleep with it in my hand. As I drifted off, I felt it slip out of my hands. Felt it almost like it wasnt my body and the toy just vanished into thin air. Its like my brain methodically switched of part after part of my body and my hand was the last thing it switched off.

Eww.. mind puke. All over there. Sorry guys, cant organize those thoughts into proper sentences that make more sense. I doubt even I would properly understand it if I reread it. Maybe I would. After all its my mindpuke =) Er anyways, yea Im trying not to resort to drugs to get me sleeping properly. Think its just a phase. And No. They Aint Sex Dreams Where I Wake Up “Prematurely”. Thats not it. Its more spiritualish i think.

Or if its about a person(might be. not sure) then my subconscious has a crush on someone and i dont know about it. damn.

And no, it wasnt hard recalling the dinosaur story. I was crazy about em back then (when dinosaurs were cool -_-) Test tomorrow. Fingers crossed that I can sleep without you know what.

PS-Been readin reports that Steve Irwin died today due to a stingray’s.. sting? lets just say attack.. while filming a docu. Was hoping it was some kind of hoax but it looks like its official. Ill miss the guy. Its sad cos kids like me who grew up watching him on tv really got so much out of it. I seriously learnt so much from him. Animal related things, of course. Atm, I prefer Corwin but this guy got me hooked early on. So, kids, watch reruns cos you aint getting any new ones. Heres to one of Australias best known treasures and the one and only Crocodile Hunter.(there really can be no other after all.)

–pSyCh–