Posted by psych at August 22nd, 2006

I like girls. I might not like them all the time. I’ve come close to actually swearing off girls at certain times during the confusion of my adolescence. (Yea all that testosterone didn’t help) But those bouts of anti-girlity actually helped me realize one thing:

* Regular people don’t find their soulmates when they’re teenagers. If they do then they’re extremely lucky but for all us regular ppl - it aint gonna happen so easily. Getting your heart broken doesn’t mean that you’re being rejected by your “soulmate”. (Think about it, a real soulmate wouldn’t dump you. Vice versa. Pretty simple). It just means that the other person is human and is doing what s/he thinks is right. It doesn’t really make them right. It just makes them human.
* The above only applies if you believe in this soulmate garbage (gasp). [Imo if theres no such thing my future lovelife is gonna be pretty f’ed up cos I’m counting on it =)]

Thanks to AG’s post, I’ve started thinking about all the girls who have driven me crazy in the psat.. and some who still do. I consider them all crushes. All except one anyway. But I’m not mentioning that because recalling it still sucks. Ahh the weirdness of childhood love. It is/wasn’t unrequited.. It just changes/ed over time, as all things do.

A random girl named Betty.
She was just a kid. Just a kid. A young kid. (omg!) Yea so was I. I Am No Paedo. No matter what a select few weirdos might think. Erm.. this was in kindergarten. Either first or second year. Can’t remember her last name for the life of me. But yea rare name imo. She’s the first and only Betty I know so far. Anyways no contact with her for a gazillion years so I’m sure she won’t see this. As far as the relationship went, I guess it was as innocent as it could get. Teacher asked us to describe the person standing opposite us and I said something stupid and goofy like pretty/beautiful. She blushed. We talked. We formed what I can only describe as bf/gf without any hormones involved. We hung out together daily after that. Last I saw her was at graduation. Can’t even remember that day at all except for waving goodbye to her before getting in the car. Still have her number written in a really really old phonebook. Don’t have the guts to call just to catch up. Don’t really want to anyway for some reason. Its been over 10 years now I think so thats alot of catching up.

Jennifer Aniston + Avril Lavigne

Need I say more? Anything hotter than them just disappears once they get in my mind. Yea, haven’t actually met them but it wouldve been some kinda injustice not to mention them. Jen’s the reason I actually started watching FRIENDS and I’m eternally grateful to her for that alone. The fact that shes gorgeous is just a plus. Avril made my teenage years happier. I love her. Love. Her.

A Girl From Primary School Who Might Read This

Yea noone really knows this but I did have a slight crush on a girl in my primary school. Nothing major but enough to get me riled up when she came near. Lasted a few months with nothing eventful happening. Everybody wes more siblingy than partnery back then anyway.
At least TMK =)
College Girls

Just a few who I think actually deserve to be here >P. Kidding. Everyone is beautiful in his/her own special way. External beauty just makes people like you more. Its true I guess. It sucks for extremely hideous people but its a weird fact. I think it’s hardcoded into our [dna]? so that we get the best children we possibly can get. No second picks. So, obese people arent sought after because then your children will likely be obese and not fit enough to survive in the wild. Or something like that. Rambbbbbling. Interesting thought.

I’ve wondered if it counts as sexual deviation(dunno the right term so wth) when someone can’t help but fall for (what the rest of the world sees as) unattractive people. I mean if guy+guy/girl+girl attractions are commonplace then why not right? Its not that far of a stretch. Then again even gay people only look for hot gay ppl to hook up with. So gender is not a determining factor but looks are? Looks before everything else? Really? Really? Picture an island. Youre stuck there. Gonna live there your whole life. Picture a guy and an old woman with you. The guy is fit, not repulsive and friendly. The woman is old, saggy(><), dirty(like unhygienic dirty), unkept, and lets see… missing all her teeth, is diseased ridden and has many many STD’s. Haha that was an exaggeration. Ok. Lets just say she was… pretty darn ugly. Girls can do the whole scenario vice versa (ugly old man with the works). And YOU HAD to do one of them to stay sane (i guess you could hold out for a few years). Who would it be? And yea it has to be either one, cant be neither etc. You could just commit suicide but wheres the fun in that.

OMG didnt mention any college girls.. lets see. Theres the 17 year old who makes me smile alot. Then theres the 18 yr old who is so damn funny she makes me laugh without even trying. Then theres the other 18 year old who is hot hot hot hot hot and taken taken taken taken. Then theres the 18 yr old who keeps calling me Jonny. Er.. the smart one from Chem whos just a little too shy.. the average one whos always asking for my help..

Too many to list. Forgot my purpose of typing this in the first place. This was actually split into two cos I keep running out of time. This(the second half) comes a day later so you can expect the meaning of the first part to be lost somewhere in the middle.

Avril….. avril… love me..

Gday

pSyCh